Someone from my past (15+ years ago), has recently resurfaced. He has had major lifechanging experiences, as have I. I also currently have a boyfriend, who doesn’t treat me the way I think I should be treated. This person from my past has put an offer on the table. If he has the chance to pick up where we left off (which was holding hands, btw), he promises not to screw things up with me. He promises to be loyal, gentle, honest, and caring. To always treat me with respect and love. (promises all broken by my current bf)
He has awakened in me things I have not felt in a very long time. I don’t think he’s a viable option right now, but he has seriously shaken my feelings for my boyfriend.
I know the Universe is taking care of me. I know it, I feel it, I just don’t yet know what is supposed to happen. I am drawn to this other man who is surely not right for me. Or is he? I need to proceed with caution. My reading suggested I trust my intuition.
My intuition tells me I need to hear the new person’s story (this could take hours, days, weeks, months – I don’t know). I feel I need to also share my story with him. Be his friend and leave it at that. My intuition tells me he will treat me the way he says. My intuition tells me he will want more than I can give him. My intuition tells me that I will leave my boyfriend over this. Whether it’s to give this other guy a shot or whether my desire to spend time with this other man tells me that my bf can’t possible be ‘the one.’
I am already emotionally giving this man energy I am not currently willing to give to my bf. I fantasize about how we will spend time together. It’s strange. It’s like falling in love.
To further complicate matters, my bf has finally enrolled in school. In a very demanding 1 year program. I feel I pushed him into this and now I feel a responsibility to see him through it. Not my responsibility, I know, but somehow I am bearing this burden. He takes me for granted and he takes advantage of that. I think it’s too little too late, and I think it was never school/money that bothered me at all. I wish I had realized/admitted this sooner. How much time have I spent focusing on the wrong things?
